have u ever feel so sad that u can feel ur heart cracking into pieces??
I feel so much right now..
sadness
anger
disappointment
All i need is a BIG HAPPY FAMILY..
no argument... i mean..argue for something that is worth for.. not like what is happening in my house.
i dun understand why everyone else can have a happy family but no us...??
like my dear told me... jiajia you ben nan nian de jin... i dun rili understand wat this meant
but from wat he explained to me.. every family got their own lil secret which is heart-killing!!
Like me... i actually have a complete family with one dad, one mom and 5siblings.. but.. We LOST one. T.T
i cry my heart out... shout till my lungs out.. she will never be back with us anymore.
and that is the moment when i feel deep down in my heart.. TREASURE THOSE U LOVE as maybe u wont be able to talk or see them the very next second.
who knows wat's going to happen next second? Only GOD knows. which i still wandering if i am going to trust HIM again.
i ever wonder if HE really exist.? but my dear told me.. HE made everything happen for one purpose.. which is now.... i still dont know what's the purpose HE bring away my erjie. T.T sobs sobs sobs.
How nice if my mum.. my grandmum, or my sisters know how to treasure each others. i know it's difficult sometimes.. when i know my mum dun understand how we as her children feel for her.. when she is too 'church-y'
we need u Mom.. as a real mom. not those biblical pastor or wat? T.T
i love u mom. i love u dad i love u too nafield, meimei n didi.. and my ahma ahgong. and Waipo.
